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Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Alleluia!!!

Well, We Did It!
Easter is here!
Lent seemed as though it would never end, but here we are on the other side of the tomb.
 












 
The children gave up video games and chips for Lent.
This is Easter Morning...



If you look carefully, you can see a tear in Joseph's eye.











Happy Easter!

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Heavy

Some days just get so heavy. We get bogged down in our schoolwork and chores and household responsibilities.
 
Gosh, some days, I feel like all I do is spend every waking moment trying to keep the children alive. Which, I have discovered, is one of the most difficult things a parent can do when they have children like mine... that are so incredibly careless with their lives.
 
I have given up alcohol for Lent, but it was a terrible idea and I have regretted it EVERY SINGLE DAY.
 
In all the darkness and heaviness and rain and blah of Lent, I have forgotten how to be joyful. I have neglected to appreciate these gifts. I have been holding on so tight to the darkness and how I feel, that I have lost the beauty of the every day.
 
So, Here I Am.
Again.
Trying again to capture the beauty and love of God. Because this life is short. Because writing it all out helps me appreciate it better. Because, in sharing these moments, I can be certain that I am at least recognizing the great gifts that God has shared with us.
 
"Someday, she won't want to sit on my lap. I don't want to get up."
 
Joseph's assignment was to write a descriptive paragraph.
This makes me laugh until my sides hurt.
He OBVIOUSLY missed each and every direction I gave him.
 
This happens every ding dong night. I make dinner and Daniel raids the freezer for ice cream.
He makes me laugh so hard.
And then I get mad.
But it's probably just because I am jealous of him.
 
 
 

Friday, February 19, 2016

February 19, 2016

I exercised yesterday, for the first time in about three years.
It hurt like whoa.
It was also, Daniel decided, an epic time to throw an epic tantrum. He screamed for twenty minutes straight, begging me to pick him up and hold him/feed him/stare at him/anything. That was deliciously fun and distracting...so it helped me through.
 
So then I had trouble sleeping last night. My whole body ached. I couldn't figure out why.
 
Actual thought process: "Oh My gosh. My stomach feels crampy. Maybe I am pregnant. No, can't be. Wait. I have the flu. I MUST have the flu. I am soooooo sick. I must be sick. My back hurts. Maybe I have a slipped disc. My neck hurts. I must have some type of spinal cord injury. I should wake Matt up. I definitely have meningitis. Or cancer. OH MY GOSH! I'M DYING! What will happen to my children?!?! What will Matt eat for lunch tomorrow?!?!?! oh wait. I just exercised. I'm fine."
 
I need therapy.